Ten again

Sitting in the living room of my grandparent's place for the 2nd day of my break I could almost lose myself to reminiscence. Other than the fact our 2005 family photograph in right in my face at this moment, listening to Bo Amir Iqram's Ten Again invites nostalgic moments of me & my cousins running around this very place playing tag or smashing chocolate cake into each others faces during birthday gatherings. Until this very day, when everybody gets together there is no limit to laughter and noise our crowd offers but a lot has change as now I am the only one tip-tapping away on the notebook waiting for my cousin to come get me before we go to watch... *over excited smile* Pirates Of The Carribean 3! So, I admit not everything has changed. :)

One of those days

I have a feeling the planets and stars just shifted giving us an all-year-round Sun eclipse 'cause I'm somehow back on Blogger! Finally, after completing a pretty in-detail book review I thought I should spare Fresh But Still Fishy some attention before I get caught digging for nachos again. Valentine's Day for 2011 was a blast of love for me or well, to be more accurate for US! I lost count of how many long whiny love letters my friends got me writing during History class but I don't think it's wrong to think and write about love once during that class instead of discussing about how there wasn't as much love back then. There were just a lot of cows, paddy fields and the love the cows show to the paddy by digesting them in four different stomachs...

For this Valentine's, I'm accepting everyone and anyone as my valentine. And you will be receiving my Belgium imported chocolates sided with Haagen-Daze in 5 years time. We love to love!

Floater

Since I've been up and about lately, I haven't had much time to tap out something perhaps delicious ? My life's been a daze and somehow I do think I'm getting the best out of this oblivion. It's a relief to wake up in the morning planning out your own schedule -to go swimming, to take a walk, to get fat on tacos. It's all you ! Somehow this would work out better after half of us apply for driver's license.

I also attended a few parties over the weekend. The semi-motive of yesterday's potluck gathering was to provide us a simple briefing on the end-year camp for 2010, the main motive was to eat (naturally). I'm definitely looking forward to it coming December just because of it's theme which I would say is something I can relate to and not hard for you guys to guess either ! No ... it's not about underwears if that came to mind to make things clear haha.

I better go take my shower before the next ep of Castle starts and if you haven't heard of the show I would be speechless. Adios for now friends ? If you are my friends. Oh gosh hope I don't have haters. I think people would be the safest term ...

Dreamers Get The Best

Go ahead and ask me what my dream is, I would say something silly to make you laugh but deep down inside I would secretly re-question myself ... " What is my dream ? " I want to make my own music, own a restaurant while living on a yacht so I can dive in the ocean for my own fish. Somehow these are the only goals I've developed. If I don't get this I'd pick the other. I'm allowing myself to be exposed to as much of risk I could receive just by being that flexible. If it makes me happy it goes, so lets carry on the legacy normally discovered in History classes of sitting aimlessly by the window to keep dreaming ! There's no rush unless you're forty-five without a job.

In Return

A balanced fusion of nature would be it's ups & downs. Earlier today I was a little bummed out on the downside of the hillside. Even after thinking of all the good I could gain satisfaction still wouldn't get to back of my head. Not until someone special came along to offer me a little boost off my short-term-depressed arse. I know I talk about looking at the brighter side of things all the time but somehow if your mind won't listen to you it's not easy to do that 'cause we're all just human. Yet someone who points out the obvious which leads you into some realization to make you go " Hey, you ARE right ! " can change everything. And I definitely have gotta thank this someone. He's six feet, he gives big hugs, he needs new shoes. It's almost too obvious isn't it ?

Thanks bro. Or girlfriend ! Haha.

The Combo

My mind can act as it's own tour guide travelling to further destinations than a plane could take me earlier this morning. The rest are a little tired from the flight but not me. I'm just relaxing by the windows of my hotel room listening to some of my favourite techno music that clearly could describe me as the urban party-till- you-lose-your-feet-lifestyle lover yet again I'm refreshed by all of the nature I'm being exposed too. Could I possibly pick between cemented pavements or dirt roads ? I don't think so. I've always wanted a little bit of both in my life. Tonight I'd have a glimpse of the city then for the next few days I'm going to be up hiking. Aaah, Sabah ... you make me think so much.

Undergoing a little bit of thought in a little hotel room,
Kiru.

Cookies or Love ?

Yesterday, I barely hesitated waking up to spending my morning at PAWS with a couple of other Interactors. We reached the place by 9am. After getting through registration, the guy with the green contacts (which Shaun couldn't get over for some reason) gave us a little bit of prep talk.

We got split into two groups at first, I obviously stuck with the cats since I'm generally not good with dogs due to one bad experience two years ago o_o

They were supposed to brushing the cats ... Haha they did la.

That's Shaun, Kelsey & Dev at the dogs section. I joined in later on, the doggies were so friendly.

Raehan took some time to grab hold on his little puppy. Hahaha hyper fella.

Dog walking ! Or in this case, dog running.

I couldn't even put my arm around Azman 'cause all of smelled like dogs & cats. :P

I named this one after my sister. They have so many similarities !

Thank you, PAWS for having us. And to everyone else, please do take some time during this semester break to drop by animal shelters like PAWS or SPCA. They aren't supported by the government & basically are on their own in many situations. It wouldn't take much to help them out. These shelters & the animals need you for atleast a day to brighten their's. May we reignite the love !

How Many Chances Do You Have To Get It Right ?

I just got done slowly enjoying every bit of emotion I'm let into while reading the last few lines of Starting Over. The book was written by in my range, this well-expressive British author, Tony Parson. Somehow I never expected to grow so attached to this book in less than week ? It was like I experienced some kind of deep attachment to the story, it's characters & the situations because it was predictable. Had I not expected to be so into this three-hundred-page paperback when I unconciously picked it out of the shelf at the books section of a mall we went to for grocery shopping. I really have to say thank you, Mr Parson for this experience.

If They Don't Fall For The Cookies ...

Have you ever felt like your at the brink of a life or death situation ? Like your willing to face whatever comes just because a sudden sense of braveness or perhaps curiousity hit you ? Due to some over exagerration & my slight fright towards dogs I actually experienced this about two days ago.

It's about 11am & I didn't have much to do at home. So, I take a stroll around the neighbourhood being extremely aware of wherever I go. Not because I'm afraid of freaky guys in back alleys it's cause of the stray dogs. Everything's cool till I run into this lovely old lady taking her humongous golden retriever for a walk. I smile, she smiles back. After about 10 minutes ... what do I see ?

The old lady was running away from something down the street.

O__________O ! Holy-

Before I could whip up a good escape plan from the stray dog standing across street, it starts following me ! " No no, follow old lady damnit. " Not like it listened to me. At this moment of fear all I could think of doing was turn around going " Boo. " I stared, I think it stared back. Quite puzzled I just spinned back around then, continued walking at an unhurried pace. Ohh emm gee. It worked ! The little devil just backed off. Sure I didn't have the balls to go ahead and do a celebration dance. But wooooooooooo.

Interesting fact we've learnt for the day, people : If your being chased by a four legged tail wagging fella, just go " Boo " or Kiru looks horrific when she goes " Boo " till even a dog can't bare for more than 5 seconds.

A Day For Love

Valentines Day is tomorrow ! And I'm hyped, definitely. Not sure if I beat my mom to getting more valentines than her but oh well. All's good. :D

Either way I would say it's not a MUST to have valentine. I mean this day was created just to remind us to express the appreciation we all have for each other. Love is conveyed everywhere, like the oxygen you inhale in. So you are missing out on loads if you choose to be blind to that by worrying over being single on V-Day.


Photo credits to Darwin Bell.

Run, Jog, Walk, Run Some More

Sweat.

Don't you love sweat ? I know, I can feel puzzled faces beginning to form behind computer screens.

But the feeling of accumulated unecessary toxins slowly pouring out of the pores throughout the body. The pride of saying " Yes I've taken my step for the day to keep myself healthier ". The self motivation that keeps pushing you to complete atleast one full round while fighting the thought of stopping halfway your mind is trying to talk you into.

Now, since I smell like something which is no where close to peaches :D I shall go shower.


I gotta get outta here,
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake,
I gotta get outta here,
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You,
I’m begging you to be my escape.
* Relient K Be My Escape

This Is Who I Really Am

I am proud of my flexibility around people. I don't judge by the labels they believe in. I rarely say something that might be offensive to them just because I don't agree with it. Instead I just fix it up a little to get my point across in a less obvious way.

Complaining is rare for me. This is because I don't want to ruin another person's day or perhaps make it worse. But some people get the perception that I'm bottling up all of my true feelings. Like I'm not being honest to myself. There are moments where I have ... lost myself. Shouted aimlessly, most of the time to myself or to someone close to my heart.

It's easy to go back to black. But I'm not giving up, I've created this life for myself. And I feel happier like this at the same time, I've saved many people from breaking down or making them believe in something they are forced to due to certain experiences. If I'm not going to be here for them, honestly speaking ... Who will ?

BUT I NEED SOMEONE TO FREAKIN UNDERSTAND ME !
I'm human too.

Am I that complicated ?

Cloudy Day Thoughts

I'm given the opportunity to fall in love again

With music, friends, my mom's noodles and myself. I have all the time in the world to fiddle with my instruments throughout the day and no one would be reminding me of how I need to complete my pending projects. Sure, the neighbors might think I'm a little off my head when my guitar strings are being pushed to the limits. But what the heck ? I'm getting inner satisfaction. And that guitar has given me too much potential to leave it just laying there upright.

In the mids of being caught up with many other unavoidable events, there is a frequent need to remind me how to love myself. But now, I'm able to actually go ahead and do it. The eyebags are dissappearing gradually, my days seem to be going at a slower pace, I can even take evening walks now !


All I'm basically trying to say is it's time to love yourself, love your life. Shall all the pointless ramblings about the past stop now, face the mistakes. There is no room for worry.

Improvise on life, make it better.

Just,

Kiru.

Hopefully I'll Find Atlantis

Aha, the exams season is coming up again. And just seems so hard for me to flip open my books. I cant flunk it. 'Cause I dont want to take chances, not in year '09.

But acing it doesn't seem absolutely possibly at the rate of my "unfaded" interest towards algebra & plant reproduction. This makes me wonder, am I getting sick of school life so fast ? And they say teenagehood is the best. Probably, 'cause there's no need to worry for bills and people breaking into your house to steal your Dior pimple cream.

So, I shall study. Study hard to get a good job. Also to have my own TGIF branch.
For free fried mac-n-cheese. :)

To enlighten your noodly asian day.

Staring at the blank page before you,

Open up the dirty window,

Let the sun illuminate the words,

That you could not find.

Optiemostic

Curling up in a corner, I sit down looking into dark blue sky nudging " Get to bed, it's 3am ". Absorbing lyrics from songs full of guilt. The chill was frigntening as the warm feeling of my body was unfound not too long after. Not anymore. Dark but not black. The soul was souless, the emotions were emotionless. It hit my limits, at that point of moment I had absolutey no feelings.But then, I took a glimpse of the reason I'm here.

Why am I suffering? Why am I fighting? Why am I sacrificing? Why am I even trying?

Then it occured, I'm here to improve and be the best. I'm the only way I can climb up to the next step. It's a long flight of stairs, but I set aside all the misery, pressure, chances of falling down just to achieve success. Life is too short to refresh bad memories and continue living with the marks they have given. Put a bandage over them and try harder.

I see the sun again rising, lightening up the world with it's joy and happiness. A new day, a new beggining, a new change. All worthwhile and unregreted.

Sciribbled down by,

Kirubagari

21st May

2008

So basically those few paragraphs was the condition I was in earlier on. Is it just me or I can't stay emo for more than half-an-hour? Haha. It almost surprises me. Still got so much to study. And I'm actually permitted to flunk my Geography paper but have to score in my Science. That's possible :)

Im going to get back into the process of acing my Science paper also known as studying. Im starting to hate that word, not like I ever liked it either. =/ Wish me luck!